Calling Mom

When is it finally time to take your Mom out of your phone contacts after she has died?

Mom died at the end of 2017. This isn’t the first Mother’s Day I’ve spent without her. But it is only the second. I thought it would get easier, but I’m finding I miss her more and more.

I honestly forget that she is still in my phone until I start scrolling through and see it there. It doesn’t make me sad. It’s oddly comforting. Yet at the same time, it reminds me that she really is gone. That I can’t call her anymore.

I’m lucky to have my girls on days like this, who remind me that they love me and appreciate me. Maybe Mother’s Day is historically a made-up kind of holiday. But as a Mom, I have loved being on the receiving end of some pretty interesting culinary creations for my breakfast in bed on these days. And I remember making my mother some pretty atrocious Mother’s Day clay pots back in my day…which she cherished, by the way. And now that my mother is gone, it is a day to reflect on her. Remember her. Miss her. I can’t call her anymore, but I can communicate with her in my own private way.

Happy Mother’s Day, Mom.

 

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